my dream             






    well better late than never I say.  my dream last night made me think of very odd situations when i woke up. not real situations but the emotion you feel whilst dreaming lingers softly for a few hours just as you wake up. i dreamt of my mum, sisters and stepdad of my mum's previous relationship. so that was fucking weird to say the least.

    i was in my old bedroom i mean 17 years ago ve had so many flats since then, my partner jamie was next to me and he told me the only thing i do is bone and the moan. funny stuff i know and then my mum shouted i heard that. my stepfather apologised to me for being a complete cunt that slurred fat jokes and de humanizing phrases at me and also beat my mum up from time to time. 

    so a lot of feelings when i woke up know it may seem silly. i understand this can be a lot to take but here we are once again fucjed up dream central. 


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